You arrived like a sudden shower on a day I thought would stay dry—
unexpected, yet somehow exactly what I was looking for.
I wasn’t waiting nor was I looking for you,
but when you came,
everything just slowly clicked into place.
At first, I hesitated.
Not because I didn’t want you,
because I wasn’t sure if I could trust how I’m feeling,
you were exactly everything I ever wanted.
Seeing you here,
the culmination of all my manifestations,
it still feels unreal to me even now.
But you—
you made it impossible for me not to fall in love with you.
The way you smile,
The way you say you’re not good with expressing yourself in words
but still finds a way to tell me everything I need to hear.
The way you reach for me in your sleep,
holding me close to your chest,
enveloped in your embrace,
as if even in your dreams,
you want me close to you.
You send me pictures before I even ask,
like you already know
how much I like seeing your face.
I can’t believe that that smile—
your smile that I am obsessed with,
belongs to me now.
With you, I can breathe.
With you, I don’t have to be careful,
don’t have to second guess the way I feel,
don’t have to pretend.
Call it fate, call it foolish, call it whatever you want—
but loving you was the easiest choice I have ever made.
And if life allows it,
I’ll keep choosing you,
over and over again,
for as long as I can.
Always remember this,
no matter how far you go,
no matter how much time we have to spend apart,
when you come home, you’ll always have me.
I love you, my love.
Today.
Always.